Ok, so AF has been so heavy it's quite a shock, but over the worst of it now I hope. It's all good though, as I now know that my body is ready to go again.
We've had such a bad run of luck over these past few weeks. It started with the mc and has just gone from bad to worse. One thing after another has happened and it's not only costing us emotionally, but it's costing us financially aswell. The last straw for me was my the garage rang me on Friday to tell me that Renault had sent them the wrong part and the correct part was actually going to be £200 more. Thus bringing the total so far up to £1700 AARRGG! When's it going to stop???
Felix is also going through this run of bad luck and thinks that we should deffinately play the lottery, as we are in for some good luck soon, so why not make it a lottery win! :) I might just try that.
Ok, I'm off to bed now, Felix is in court in the morning (another bad luck thing) will explain another time though.
Speak soon x
Sunday 12 October 2008
Friday 10 October 2008
Ok, so no big deal...(really!)
Well this morning I awoke to the all to familiar feeling of AF returning!
At last is all I can say. At least I now know that the faint lines I've had over the last few days were just residual hormones left over from the mc. AF returning tells me that my body has healed and it's ready to try again. Much to the relief of us both :)
It's late now and I need to go to bed, I just wanted to put this down and so therefore I can now start to enjoy this again.
Speak soon
x
At last is all I can say. At least I now know that the faint lines I've had over the last few days were just residual hormones left over from the mc. AF returning tells me that my body has healed and it's ready to try again. Much to the relief of us both :)
It's late now and I need to go to bed, I just wanted to put this down and so therefore I can now start to enjoy this again.
Speak soon
x
Thursday 9 October 2008
I feel ready to come back now...
It's been quite a while since I last posted...
I lost the pregnancy :(
@ 10 weeks I woke up with some brown spotting after dreaming that night that I had started bleeding! 'Strange' I went to see the doctor, who told me it was probably nothing, but to be on the safe side he booked me in for a scan early the following morning. I could sleep that night, I can tell you. The bleeding hadn't got any worse, ut when I got up in the morning, it had started to turn bright red. My mum picked me up early, Jon stayed at home with Milly, as they don't allow little ones in for the scans, plus I didn't want her to see me upset if it was bad news.
So, we got to the hospital, waited about 10 minutes, then got called in. They were lovely, they started the scan, but couldn't see my uterus properly, so I had to have an internal scal... This is when they discovered that I had a 'Blighted Ovum' I'd only read about them in passing on the internet, but couldn't believe this was happening to me. I could clearly see there was no baby there :( I felt my world come crashing down around me. This baby I had been nurturing inside me for the past 10 weeks wasn't even there. How can that be.
They did everything by the book and offered me two options. Either I could let nature take it's course, or they would book me in for an emergency ERPC. I opted for the ERPC and had this done that afternoon and was home by 11pm that night. That was on the 9th March. The day before Jon's birthday.
It's now a month later exactly, my period still hasn't returned, although for the last few days, It really feels like it's on it's way. But I've got very very faint lines on a couple of hpt's over the last couple of days.(althought, these have come up after the time limit) but they are there non the less. I felt like I ovulated 2 weeks after the ERPC and so because I felt ready to, we did some bd'ing. I'm now wondering if I might possibly be pregnant again...!
I know I'm just going to have to wait and see, as it could quite possibly be left over HCG from the last pregnancy.
Oh why oh why did I test? Now It's all I can think about! LOL!
Speak soon x
I lost the pregnancy :(
@ 10 weeks I woke up with some brown spotting after dreaming that night that I had started bleeding! 'Strange' I went to see the doctor, who told me it was probably nothing, but to be on the safe side he booked me in for a scan early the following morning. I could sleep that night, I can tell you. The bleeding hadn't got any worse, ut when I got up in the morning, it had started to turn bright red. My mum picked me up early, Jon stayed at home with Milly, as they don't allow little ones in for the scans, plus I didn't want her to see me upset if it was bad news.
So, we got to the hospital, waited about 10 minutes, then got called in. They were lovely, they started the scan, but couldn't see my uterus properly, so I had to have an internal scal... This is when they discovered that I had a 'Blighted Ovum' I'd only read about them in passing on the internet, but couldn't believe this was happening to me. I could clearly see there was no baby there :( I felt my world come crashing down around me. This baby I had been nurturing inside me for the past 10 weeks wasn't even there. How can that be.
They did everything by the book and offered me two options. Either I could let nature take it's course, or they would book me in for an emergency ERPC. I opted for the ERPC and had this done that afternoon and was home by 11pm that night. That was on the 9th March. The day before Jon's birthday.
It's now a month later exactly, my period still hasn't returned, although for the last few days, It really feels like it's on it's way. But I've got very very faint lines on a couple of hpt's over the last couple of days.(althought, these have come up after the time limit) but they are there non the less. I felt like I ovulated 2 weeks after the ERPC and so because I felt ready to, we did some bd'ing. I'm now wondering if I might possibly be pregnant again...!
I know I'm just going to have to wait and see, as it could quite possibly be left over HCG from the last pregnancy.
Oh why oh why did I test? Now It's all I can think about! LOL!
Speak soon x
Friday 15 August 2008
6 + 4 today - Oh the sickness...
Well I'm fast heading towards 7 weeks. The sickness hit hard yesterday. I was in Tesco's doing some shopping and I thought I was going to faint. I went all squiffy like! Then this overwhelming feeling of wanting to throw up came over me. Of course I couldn't because I was in the middle of the supermarket with a trolley load of stuff, I'll be dammed if I was going to lose that and have to do it all again!!!
So I battled through and made it to the car, only to get a phone call from Mum to say, I'm home now so I'll meet yo on the hill at 4.15. OK I said, see you there. I had to rush home, put the shopping away, change Milly's nappy, make sure she was wearing warm enough clothes for the walk, go to the loo, grab the dog lead, calm the dog down enough to get the lead on, grab some grapes and some water, grab my walking boots, grab Milly, open the door with Milly insisting she walks to the car on her own, all the time making sure the dog doesn't knock her over on the way. Get the dog in the car, get Milly in the car, get myself in the car...phew...stop! Breath! OK, off we go, we've got 15 Min's to get there.
Get to the top of Leith Hill and it's a lovely afternoon. I get my boots on, get Milly in the backpack, get the dog out and then Mum arrives. Her 2 dogs are out and bounding around with Poppy. Lovely. Now off for the walk.
Mum's a little worried about the walking and the strain it might be having on my heart now I'm pregnant. We don't just stroll, we do hard hill walking, and Milly's not getting any lighter. It's great, but very tiring on those hills. She wants me to talk to the midwife about it. So I'll mention it when I see her.
Right, I've got my best friend coming over soon and I'm not even dressed yet, so I'd better get on with it.
Speak later
x
So I battled through and made it to the car, only to get a phone call from Mum to say, I'm home now so I'll meet yo on the hill at 4.15. OK I said, see you there. I had to rush home, put the shopping away, change Milly's nappy, make sure she was wearing warm enough clothes for the walk, go to the loo, grab the dog lead, calm the dog down enough to get the lead on, grab some grapes and some water, grab my walking boots, grab Milly, open the door with Milly insisting she walks to the car on her own, all the time making sure the dog doesn't knock her over on the way. Get the dog in the car, get Milly in the car, get myself in the car...phew...stop! Breath! OK, off we go, we've got 15 Min's to get there.
Get to the top of Leith Hill and it's a lovely afternoon. I get my boots on, get Milly in the backpack, get the dog out and then Mum arrives. Her 2 dogs are out and bounding around with Poppy. Lovely. Now off for the walk.
Mum's a little worried about the walking and the strain it might be having on my heart now I'm pregnant. We don't just stroll, we do hard hill walking, and Milly's not getting any lighter. It's great, but very tiring on those hills. She wants me to talk to the midwife about it. So I'll mention it when I see her.
Right, I've got my best friend coming over soon and I'm not even dressed yet, so I'd better get on with it.
Speak later
x
Thursday 7 August 2008
5 +3 - So so so tired...
OMG! I can't believe how tired I am today. I don't remember this from when I was pregnant with Milly. I can't keep my eyes open. I put Milly down for her nap about an hour ago and just wanted to cuddle up with her and go to sleep. I can't though :( I've got to fit some work in while she's asleep.
We went to take her swimming yesterday at the in laws, but the pool heater had gone haywire, so that meant the water was just a little too cold for her. Don't want her shivering, little cutie x
I think I'd better get on with some work now :(
speak later
x
We went to take her swimming yesterday at the in laws, but the pool heater had gone haywire, so that meant the water was just a little too cold for her. Don't want her shivering, little cutie x
I think I'd better get on with some work now :(
speak later
x
Monday 4 August 2008
5 weeks today
Woohoo, 5 weeks today, babies vocal chords are forming and it's heart is beating and circulating blood round it's teeny tiny body.
I know I've not posted for a little while, but I've been so busy, not had a moment to be honest.
Anyway, down to how I'm feeling, very very tired at the moment. I keep getting some sharp pains in my (.)(.)'s dammit, I thought I might have been lucky enough not to be getting any other symptoms this time round. No such luck, I'm even starting to feel a little sick from time to time.
I had an annoying morning this morning. I booked my 1st midwife appointment last week for today, I know it was today, because I was sat in front of my PC when I made the phone call and wrote it down as she said it. Anyway, I got there (and it's not just a wander down the road) managed to find a space in the car park, walked to the surgery, told them I was there and what time my appointment was and who with, only to be told that the midwife doesn't come in on Monday's, she come in on Tuesday's. I must have made a mistake. AAARRGGGG! It wasn't me who made the mistake, it was the receptionist who made the booking for me, she must have said Monday when she actually meant Tuesday. Bloody hell!!!! I was really looking forward to it as well. I know It's tomorrow, but it's sort of left me a little deflated.
Moving on though...
I treated myself on Saturday, I got myself a couple (OK 5) of maternity things from
H&M. I got 2 pairs of nice combats, 1 brown and 1 black and 3 t-shirts, 2 black and 1 pink!
OK I'm going to sign off now, got to make some supper, I'm starving.
Speak soon
x
I know I've not posted for a little while, but I've been so busy, not had a moment to be honest.
Anyway, down to how I'm feeling, very very tired at the moment. I keep getting some sharp pains in my (.)(.)'s dammit, I thought I might have been lucky enough not to be getting any other symptoms this time round. No such luck, I'm even starting to feel a little sick from time to time.
I had an annoying morning this morning. I booked my 1st midwife appointment last week for today, I know it was today, because I was sat in front of my PC when I made the phone call and wrote it down as she said it. Anyway, I got there (and it's not just a wander down the road) managed to find a space in the car park, walked to the surgery, told them I was there and what time my appointment was and who with, only to be told that the midwife doesn't come in on Monday's, she come in on Tuesday's. I must have made a mistake. AAARRGGGG! It wasn't me who made the mistake, it was the receptionist who made the booking for me, she must have said Monday when she actually meant Tuesday. Bloody hell!!!! I was really looking forward to it as well. I know It's tomorrow, but it's sort of left me a little deflated.
Moving on though...
I treated myself on Saturday, I got myself a couple (OK 5) of maternity things from
H&M. I got 2 pairs of nice combats, 1 brown and 1 black and 3 t-shirts, 2 black and 1 pink!
OK I'm going to sign off now, got to make some supper, I'm starving.
Speak soon
x
Saturday 26 July 2008
3 +5 (12dpo)
Last night I sat down to watch some tv and fell asleep within minutes of it starting. I didn't realise just how tired I was.
Today has been the same, every time I've sat down, I've just wanted to fall asleep. I can't remember feeling this tired when I was pregnant with Milly. It has just taken me over completely.
I've also been getting some slight strangeness in my pelvic area. I don't want to say pains, because they're not, but they are slightly uncomfortable. I suppose it's my uterus begining to do some stretching or something to that effect.
I joined my new antinatal club on Babyworld yesterday. April 2009. That seems so strange and so far away. It's not though is it, it will go so quickly. I remember when I was pregnant with Milly, there had been such a long gap between Felix and Milly 19 years to be exact, that it was like being pregnant for the 1st time. It took so long to get to the birth. This time though, because I'm running around after 16 month old, I bet it goes without me realising.
Ok I'm rambling now. I'll sign off now. I'll be back though.
x
Today has been the same, every time I've sat down, I've just wanted to fall asleep. I can't remember feeling this tired when I was pregnant with Milly. It has just taken me over completely.
I've also been getting some slight strangeness in my pelvic area. I don't want to say pains, because they're not, but they are slightly uncomfortable. I suppose it's my uterus begining to do some stretching or something to that effect.
I joined my new antinatal club on Babyworld yesterday. April 2009. That seems so strange and so far away. It's not though is it, it will go so quickly. I remember when I was pregnant with Milly, there had been such a long gap between Felix and Milly 19 years to be exact, that it was like being pregnant for the 1st time. It took so long to get to the birth. This time though, because I'm running around after 16 month old, I bet it goes without me realising.
Ok I'm rambling now. I'll sign off now. I'll be back though.
x
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